Can you get the plague from loving someone too much?

Nothing lasts forever, Nobody waits forever.. have you ever noticed? As I wave goodbye, another cycle starts.. Letting go was hard.. In my life's ups & downs she was my highest.. she too is my lowest.. I just discovered that placing your faith and trust in yourself, others, material things, your job or anything else will lead to disappointment.. I trusted myself too much, I admit I went a bit astray.. all of us go through difficult times in our lives, and like a ship in a storm, we need help to remain steady, A ship has an anchor to help it hold steady.. Now I'm trying to lower that anchor.. I love her.. But God's will be done.. I took the risk knowing how things would end up.. It was a long fight.. I was proud of myself.. that somehow in my life.. I loved someone this much.. Now it seems that I don't want to fall in love again, I'm not brave enough to take what chances I may have.. My heart cries out like a siren in the silent night.. waking everyone up.. I can remember a time in my life years ago when I had a negative, hopeless atittude. My whole philosophy was that if I didn't hope for anything good, then I wouldn't be dissappointed when it didn't happen. I had been hurt, and I thought that I could protect myself from more pain by thinking that way.. Finding a way out of here is harder than I thought..so is coming back.. I really don't know what to do.. I've tried everything just to forget her.. I reverie, I just can't find my old me.. I wanna scream.. My world is now sinking with thoughts of you.. I can't even stop crying.. It's like I'm running a 100 miles an hour in the wrong direction.. My world is closing in.. on the inside, but I'm not showing it.. when all I am is crying out I hold it in and fake a smile.. still I'm broken.. I may look HAPPY on the outside.. but if you felt how I felt on the inside then you'd understand.. Is there anyone that fails like I do? Is there anyone that falls? am I the only one who feels this way? Cause when I take a look around, everybody seems so strong.. I know they'll soon discover that I don't belong here.. So I took it all away like everything's okay.. if I make them all believe it maybe I'll believe it too.. I'll play the part again so everyone will see me the way that I see them.

The hardest turn in my life.

Here I am.. caught in one of those so-called "crossroads" now I'm confused what road to pick.. and I know both of them wouldn't be easy.. Sometimes I wish I could turn back time.. then go for the gold... But I know one thing for sure.. God will help me.. Lord, Kaw na po bahala :)

My old time romantic-comedy fave movie.

10 rules to follow from Gyeon-Woo of "My Sassy Girl" a 2001 South Korean romantic comedy film.

1. Don't ask her to be feminine
2. Don't let her drink over three glasses... She'll beat someone.
3. At a cafe, drink coffee instead of coke or juice.
4. If she hits you act like it hurts. If it hurts act like it doesn't.
5. On your 100th day together give her a rose during your class, she'll like it alot.
6. Make sure you learn fencing and squash.
7. Also, be prepared to go to prison sometimes.
8. If she says she'll kill you don't take it lightly, You'll feel better.
9. If her feet hurts, exchange shoes with her.
10. Finally, she likes to right.... Encourage her..

^^

What If? ( Inspired by the song Amazed by Desperation band)

What if we put the needs of others before ourselves?

What if all our decisions were made by asking "How will this help someone else?"

What if we all work together?

What if we acted out of love for each other? Or for people we didn't even know?

What if we could change the city? What would that look like?

What if it was possible?

What if we put all our selfishness aside?

What if we applied our sense of entitlement to those around us?

What if the Kingdom was alive and well right here?

"Will work for no other reason than to help you"

Lord I'm amazed by You... :)

A song, for the broken-hearted people of BoyzTrek.

This may be the last thing that I write for long
Can you hear me smiling when I sing this song, for you, and only you
As I leave will you be someone to say good-bye?
As I leave will you be someone to wipe your eye?
My foot is out the door, and you can't stop me now

You wanted the best, it wasn't me
Will you give it back, and I'll take the lead
When there's no more room to make it grow
I'll see you again, you'll pretend you're naive
Is this what you wantIs this what you need
How you end up let me know.

As I go, remember all the simple things you know,
My mind is just a crutch and I still hope
That you will miss me when I'm gone
This is the last song

The hearts start breaking as the year is gone
The dream's beginning and the time rolls on
It seems so surreal, now I sing it.
Somehow I knew that it would be this way,
Somehow I knew that it would slowly fade.
Now I am gone, just try and stop me, now.

You wanted the best, but it wasn't me
Will you give it back, now i'll take the lead
When there's no more room to make it grow
I'll see you again, you'll pretend you're naive
Is this what you wantIs this what you need
How you end up let me know.

As I go, remember all the simple things you know,
My mind is just a crutch and I still hope
That you will miss me when I'm gone
This is the last song

Will you need me now ?
You'll find a way somehow
You want it tooI want it too

As I go, remember all the simple things you know,
My mind is just a crutch and I still hope
That you will miss me when I'm gone
This is the last song

As I go, remember all the simple things you know,
My mind is just a crutch and I still hope
That you will miss me when I'm gone
This is the last song.